Is he just an old blow hard? All bark and no bite? Just trying to get a sense of how he really is...not to say that his behavior hasn't been abusive...It has and he needs to check himself. You have a right to choose your own path, whether it is a spiritual one or not, and whether he likes it or not. I like the idea of calmly stating that you no longer consider yourself one of JWs, for personal reasons. You don't need any help from the elders and you won't accept any sheperding calls. For personal reasons. You owe no one any explanation. Period. No need for raised voices; your decision has been made. Therapy will give you tools to handle your marital situation in the way that's best for you...and don't be afraid to vent with us. The feelings you're expressing are valid and valued.
Hugs,
wl9